Finito

I'd mentioned that i'd watch A Walk To Remember last night..... well, i did not.. i was out with some old friends and we had a 'nice' time and then i got to know some stuff that was really shocking...alright.. i came home.. i tried to make some ammends to whatever i'd heard and clarify whatever was up.... well in the end it turned out to be all clarified...clarified as in really clear...all said and done, thats it!! Its the end to everything...all hopes lost..all expectations done in! thats it and i never wanna write about it on this space... there never will be a word about the issue over here! its the final The End!! no more pondering over things or anything! even if there is an opening or somethings do creep up... it'll be me this time who makes sure it does'nt amount to anythin..no hopes or expectations or future thinkings! thats it! Finito! and it really is not that easy as it looks! i'm writing all this while my head is splitting with pain... i have a bad hangover and i cant standup for more than 5 minutes at a stretch!! i've been lying on this bed for the past 12 hours now... i wasnt awake but i did not sleep! i was thinking too much but my mind was idle... its just...it'l take time..but it wont be expressed... it wont show!!!! its finished!
there are problems all around at the moment,... nothing seems to be going right... i dont know wats gonna happen... and i dont wanna think about it!!